The Struggle to Believe

The following meditation is from Doug Hood's book

Nurture Faith: Five Minute Meditations to Strengthen Your Walk with Christ.

“I have faith; help my lack of faith!”

Mark 9:24 (Common English Bible)

Many who sincerely want to believe in God find believing to be difficult. Faith rarely comes easily. The only way it does come is when we accept where we are on our faith journey and go on from there. Longing to be someplace else along the journey accomplishes nothing, apart from frustration.

At the beginning of a new year, we cannot say I wish I was fifteen pounds less before beginning a New Year’s resolution of a healthier lifestyle. Eating better, exercising more and getting more rest must begin where you are. That is what the unidentified man in this story from Mark’s Gospel teaches us; we must begin where we are, “Lord, I believe, help my unbelief.” He begins from where he is. Within him is a mixture of belief and unbelief. He owns that when he speaks to Jesus.

Each day we may know a little more of God. We can never know all of God. But instead of being occupied with what we don’t know we can say, “help me with my unbelief.” The man in our story approaches Jesus with both belief and unbelief. Rather than dwelling upon what he doesn’t know - or being troubled by what he doesn’t understand - he seeks Jesus’ help. There is present enough faith to seek more of Jesus. This is a more helpful approach to faith than those who claim they will not believe until they understand fully.

The Christian faith is not established upon right beliefs, right doctrine, or on how much someone believes. The Christian faith is personal, centered upon the person of Jesus. Here, this man in Mark’s story instructs us that often we approach faith incorrectly. Rather than trying to understand all the mystery that is God, this man seeks out the person of Jesus; he seeks a relationship. To concentrate on what you don’t understand will destroy whatever faith you have. Accepting God’s love in the person of Jesus and making your love for him tangible in each day of life results in a faith that will grow from more to more.

Joy,

A Life Trained By Christ

“Train yourself for a holy life!”

1 Timothy 4:7b (Common English Bible)

            A physician once taught me an important lesson about spiritual growth – there is simply no substitute for regularly paying attention to God. He shared this story with me. In the midst of a successful practice as a doctor, he had little time for his wife, for his children. Seventy and eighty hour workweeks were customary. He loved his patients. He loved his work. Time at home was for rest and renewal for the next day. Dinners with his family were rare. Hard work seemed to pay dividends. His salary rose steadily each year. Admiration for him and his exceptional work held a privileged position in the community. Everything seemed right, until it did not. Both his wife and his children had found a way to get on in life without him. “The day I realized that was the most painful day of my life”, the doctor said.

            The doctor held a stethoscope in his hand. “Perhaps, this is the most important tool for a physician’s work,” he shared. Doctors study and train to know how to listen to a patient with this tool. What is supremely important is to know what “regular” sounds like when we hold the stethoscope to a patient’s chest or back.  If the doctor does not know what “regular” sounds like, then the doctor simply does not know what they are listening to with a patient seated in front of them. Doctors must learn well what “regular” sounds like so, when using a stethoscope, they can recognize immediately what sounds “irregular.” Once an “irregular” comes through the stethoscope, a decision, with the patient, is required. This one part of practicing medicine is all about listening carefully, listening correctly.

            “I was failing at listening carefully to my life, to my family,” said the doctor. “Then, I almost lost them.” “That terrified me.” The difficulty was that I did not know what “regular” was, what “regular” sounded like as a part of a family. Here is a man who is an excellent doctor but is a poor husband and father. Training was required. Good training is about consistent, regular effort over time. Good training demands the proper tools. “I went back to school,” said the doctor. The textbook was the Bible. The classroom was a chair in his backyard for one hour at the close of every day. Reading the Bible every evening, the doctor learned what “regular” sounded like. Then he listened carefully to his own life, his daily practices and priorities. What the doctor heard was irregular.

            It is remarkable what listening to God will do for a life. A “regular” life, a healthy life, is a lived experience of faith in God. Practices change and as practices change, a reshaping occurs. Each life that listens carefully to God, in regular time reading the Bible and prayer, redevelops from the inside out. Such a life embodies more and more the way of Jesus. Trust in God increases, persistent hope in the coming of God’s reign expands, and love overcomes hatred and selfishness. Life moves from unhealthy “instinctual reactions” to learned behaviors – behaviors that enter the heart from habitual practice in the way of Christ. This is a trained life. A life trained by Christ.

Joy,

Unfinished Discipleship

“Every scripture is inspired by God and is useful for teaching, for showing mistakes, for correcting, and for training character, so that the person who belongs to God can be equipped to do everything that is good.”

2 Timothy 3:16, 17 (Common English Bible)

              There are people in the church who have a favorite hymn but not a favorite scripture. They have picked out a favorite piece of music to feed their soul, but they do not have a favorite selection from the Bible to feed their mind. The soul is well nourished. The mind is not. Why would this be? I recall a woman telling me that she does not need to study the Bible. She studied the Bible formally in college classes. That was forty years ago! Asked what her favorite scripture was, she responded, “To thine own self be true.” That is not from the Bible. It is from the Shakespearean tragedy, Hamlet. Yet, she sings in the church choir each week. Classic, traditional church music feeds her soul, she told me. Nourishing the soul while neglecting the mind.

              Paul writes to Timothy that God inspires scripture for expanding the mind. The essential value of scripture is to teach, show mistakes, for correcting, and for training character. Beautiful sacred music inspires and takes a weary soul to a place of rest and nourishment. That is important in the life of a disciple. However, it is not enough. Paul reminds us here, as he does in other places, that God created us for a purpose. God created each person to be useful to God. Scripture makes us useful. Scripture shapes us, forms us, and equips us to be participants in God’s work in the world. Inspired by sacred music while lacking usefulness to God is unfinished discipleship.

              We belong to God. Paul is clear on that point. Can you imagine staffing your business with people who lack the basic skill set to get the work done? Christian baptism is Kingdom staffing. Baptism is God’s claim on us. God chooses us and provides the Bible as a training manual for equipping us to be useful. Baptism is also our promise. We promise to make God’s work the very center of our life. That means that we will expand our capacities for accomplishing each task God places in our charge. Done well, God’s Kingdom expands continually affecting positively more and more lives. That results in exponential growth of God’s purposes in the world. That is, if each new baptized disciple is useful.

              I am asking that you feed your mind daily on God’s word in the Bible. Memorize passages that seem particularly meaningful. Throughout the day, as you go about other tasks, recall to mind those passages you have memorized. Think deeply about why that particular passage is important to you. That simple process accomplishes a big part of God’s work in each person – reflecting on what God intends for us to hear from a portion of scripture that resonates with us. Prayerfully ask two questions: “What would you have me hear, O Lord?” and “What would you have me do, O Lord?” Day after day, you will discover that God’s Spirit is upon you, equipping you for God’s good purposes in the world. That is what discipleship looks like.

Joy, 

Qualifying For the Christian Life

“Jesus looked at him carefully and loved him. He said, ‘You are lacking one thing. Go, sell what you own, and give the money to the poor. Then you will have treasure in heaven. And come, follow me.’ But the man was dismayed at this statement and went away saddened, because he had many possessions.”

Mark 10:21, 22 (Common English Bible)

            The process of positive change begins with us. I heard these words again several weeks before returning to the Holy Land with a church group. Two doctors, colleagues in practice, provided me with a comprehensive health check. Blood labs, full body scan, cognitive tests and a general physical exam found elevated blood sugar and more body fat than is optimal. The pathway forward included an “induction diet” for the first six weeks. Absolutely no grain, rice, potato, or pasta. Additionally, no tropical fruit such as bananas or citrus and no desserts. Then, one of the doctors said that if he could banish two words spoken by his patients, they would be, “I’ll try.” Each patient makes one of two decisions: they will or they will not. When I left his office, I would answer one or the other.  Each of the eight days in Israel, only one option for lunch – a choice of sandwiches and French fries. Bread, produced from grain, and potato. With an apple in hand, I simply walked away from the group for lunch.

            In this story from Mark’s Gospel, a man approaches Jesus with a question, “What must I do to obtain eternal life?” The man wants to know what he must do to qualify for the Christian life. Together, they establish that the man knew the Bible and kept the commandments. According to many standards, the man is a deeply religious person. That is important to concede lest we miss the full force of the story. Jesus follows, “You are lacking one thing. Go, sell what you own, and give the money to the poor. Then you will have treasure in heaven. And come, follow me.” Jesus is not teaching a lesson on financial stewardship, not directly. Jesus is not advocating that the wealthy carry a greater responsibility for the poor. The real issue here is one of commitment. Jesus is asking if the man is totally committed to God, is prepared to make a total engagement of his life with Jesus Christ.

            The man’s answer is no. The man knew the Bible. The man lived a moral life. He obeyed all the commandments. Yet, the man failed to make a total commitment to Jesus. To be a profoundly religious person, it seems, has little to do with biblical knowledge or living a moral life. If that were the case, then there is no way that King David, Peter, or Paul were “religious.” David committed adultery. Peter was impulsive. Paul self-identified, “I’m a miserable human being. (Romans 7:24).” All capable of disloyalties. Each life colored with moral ambiguity. Yet, with all their flaws, each are remembered as profoundly religious persons. That is because they were deeply committed to God. Biblical faith has little concern with one’s mastery of the Bible. Biblical faith cares little with high moral attainment. Biblical faith is concerned with our ultimate allegiance. We will follow Jesus totally or we will not.

            Commitment is a choice of direction. Jesus Christ is Lord and we rearrange all of our life around the values of Jesus or we will not. The great challenge to the Church has never been those who are opposed to religion. The great challenge to the Church are those who say they believe but do not care enough to weave their life with the life of Christ without reservation. Commitment to Christ is not a highly charged emotional experience or a life of strict moral discipline. Rather, commitment means that we chose our values, manage our financial resources, and center each day on honoring Jesus’ claim upon us. Jesus Christ is the creative center of all that we do and think. The process of positive change begins with us. “I’ll try”, is insufficient. We will or we will not make Jesus Christ the final ground for every decision we make.

Joy,